Bikini time @ 4 weeks post op

Today I wore my bikini outside in public for the first time!!! So exciting. I was a little nervous but hubby said over and over he couldn't believe how great I look. In at the beach for the week and although dr. Telepun has said its ok for me to get in the water as long as I don't just stay wet for long periods of time I'm still a little nervous about it. Hubby asked if I felt any different and I told him its hard to say because I'm in this Wrap thing all the time so I don't see the difference as much as I do with the breast. Make sense? I did feel like I looked ok today and I look forward to being able to work out some because my butt is getting very flat lol. All in all I'm feeling pretty good. Still some severe nipple sensitivity but my stomach rarely hurts at all and most of the scabs have fallen off from the scar at this pointe

Second thoughts set in

So I've hit the place where you start to do the little depression thing. Everybody i said it ovewould come and I was like "ohhhh bs"! But umm I'm there. I've been super tired the past three days, I tries on some clothes today and realized I still am somewhere between a Xl and L. Which is weird because I look at my body and I think "that's what a medium should look like" and alas it's not the case. My boobs still hurt but I haven't had a pain pill in over 24 hours which is good. I even had it flash across my head tonight that maybe I should have spent 8,000 another way. Ugh I know it's like that and just my brain messing with me but I hope I pull out of the slump soon. Just being honest and sharing the truth so if you get there emotionally you'll know it happened to me too!